10:35 AM on Friday, March 12, as I start this entry. I just spent my second night in my apartment and all is well. Things are going really, really well so far, but I’ve got to admit I’m still a little nervous. I think I’m totally justified in this, though – if I weren’t nervous, I’d just be cocky and that’s a bad thing when you’re unemployed in an unfamiliar city.
I have a job interview lined up for Tuesday for an assisting position for a food photographer. I guess they need somebody full-time and are especially looking for someone who knows large format well. I think I’d be pretty well qualified for this, especially given my experience with large format that goes back to when I was 16 and I built my first 4×5. Let’s hope I can get it.
In the mean time, though, I’m still making all sorts of lists of other photographers I’d like to try to work for. This is in case the thing with the food photographer doesn’t work out. You know how I said I was a little nervous? I’m actually a lot nervous, I’m just trying to minimize it so I stay calm. It’s still settling in that I just up and left MO and came to a city I’d never been before to live and work. Once I get work (which will hopefully be *very* soon), I’ll feel a lot better. I’ll be calm and happy, really. The unemployment thing just injects a little too much uncertainty into the equation for me to sit here and be fully confident that I’m going to be able to pull this off. Self-doubt is a bitch.
I’ll say it again – who’s going to come visit me here?
I think tomorrow I’m going to go down to the art museum or something. I definitely need a brainy way to pass the weekend, and I can’t meditate for two days straight. Well, I could, but that would be crazy hard. And I’m not that committed right now. Heh. I’ll probably work on some of the books I’m reading and study some Japanese as well. My general motivation and drive and direction have all shot through the roof since I got here. Amazing what the threat of failure in a scary new place will do to get a person to start getting shit done.
More later, I so have to go to the bathroom now…
