So the windy city isn’t so kind as I had hoped she would be. More calls today yielded nothing new. There are still two places I’m trying to get to to meet with people at, but I can’t get into either until at least next week. I’m currently working on a list of at least 30 more photographers to call tomorrow. Something’s got to give eventually, right?
I’m so stupid sometimes. Well, smart and stupid. I do things that are both good for me and bad for me at the same time. Like today, I went to Calumet Photo to look at the Contax 645, as I haven’t handled one since PhotoPlus Expo in NYC and even then it was only briefly. So I go, I check it out, and in the end I leave with a Nikon F3P and a 50mm f/1.2 AIS lens under my arm. New camera means I’m back in 35mm again, I’ll gain momentum with my shooting again, more freelance options, etc. It also means I now have $1,100 more to pay off on my credit card.
All the more motivation to go out and find work and fast.
I like Chicago, I really do. It’s just beating me around the face and neck for now and will have me sleeping poorly and worrying until I get more solidly on my feet.
The fact that it’s snowed every day for the last three days isn’t helping much with the whole keeping a good attitude thing. If I get in such a mood that I lose momentum and get lazy, I’ll fail. It’s as simple as that. This is going to be pretty difficult in the end, but dammit I’ve got to do it or I’ll never make anything of myself in my life.
This is the first step towards a lot of bigger, better things. Unfortunately, it’s a first step made in waist-deep mud. You can do it, but it’s messy and not exactly the easiest thing in the world.
