Big fat headache here. It might have something to do with the huge screwdriver I made myself when I was having supper over at my friend’s house, but I’m thinking it has nothing to do with that and everything to do with the monumental amounts of bullshit I’ve randomly had to put up with today. It’s just been coming at me from the most random directions at all the most inopportune times. I’m sure my attitude today isn’t helping, as I’m generally in a bad mood, and being in a bad mood always helps magnify the bad things one encounters in a day.
I’ll just say this – people suck.
You know what else sucks? The two portfolios I’m handing in for my two independent studies tomorrow morning after I get out of my fucking Japanese final. The one looks decent, and really only has one print that I’d like to go back and reprint, but the other is truly a pile of unadulterated shit. The images suck, the negatives I had to print from are bad, and the final prints themselves look horrible. There is only one image in the lot that I do not completely hate, and even that one looks bad because the print is hugely sub-par. I feel really bad having to hand in this stuff because it’s so bad. I tried to do these things well, I really did, but in the end about the only thing I managed to do remotely well for either independent study was the finishing. I did a very good job mounting and matting the prints, though given the lack of a tacking iron and given that the dry mount press is about 3,000 years and mostly broken, I could have done better. I’d be happy to accept a C on one or both of these things. I have that little faith in them.
Also, never try to do the right thing, as it will ultimately get you burned every time. [/cryptic]
So I guess I’m just in a bad mood tonight. Maybe a shower would be a good idea. That and some Aleve for this fucking headache. Yeah, I think I’ll do that. Back in a tick.
And I’m back. Feeling cleaner and warmer now, but the headache is still here. Of course, I don’t expect it to be gone just yet, as I just took the Aleve like 10 minutes ago.
Oi. I need to find some middle ground. I continue to have a tendency to go too far one way or another and then have trouble admitting I fucked up. I take all the wrong things too seriously. I’ve proven this time and time again. With luck, maybe I’ll get better about that once I get the hell out of here…
Sometimes life seems too complicated for all the wrong reasons. I’m not saying that right now is one of those times, because it isn’t, but there certainly are those days that make you want to scream for no good reason at all.
Yeah, I don’t really have anything to say tonight. I really don’t know where I’m going with this. So I’m going to stop writing now.
